MY SONNNNNNN

Fan animation by Nova MSM

While drawing my latest hyper-fixation character, I have realized just how terrible I am with poses and proportions.

Most of my art consists of "Character Sheets", as in T-Poses, arms on the side, direct front and side views.

An art piece I did of Dusk from the side, and one of Trove from a uhh 40 degree angle, simple pose, looks really good, but art of characters doing something, in a unique angle, are rather rough and ugly.

I think I need to actually be a good artist and make good art, and not create endless stand alone portraits or sheets, you feel me?

Most of my art hasn't been uploaded due to them being sketches, or very rough designs, due to the lack of motivation, the good ol' "I don't know how to make this" and "wow this looks like shit" which I need to start not letting me get to my head.

After roughly four years of constantly playing through each of the ps2 Ratchet games until I got burnt out for each, and resumed months later, I have officially 100% and Platinum trophied all four games on ps3.

I have to say, among the four games, the OG was my favorite, the music slapped, the writing and humor imo was peak of the series, and I love the clunky aesthetics of the robots and huge amount of plant life in the levels, it felt really organic.

The gameplay is a little lacking after playing the other three, but that's about it.

My second favorite is probably Deadlocked, it's pure dopamine, just endless blowing shit up, and I found the story to be badass.

Fucking hated the announcer though, he would not shut up, and randomly just have entire character arcs through out some stages.

Ratchet 3 was great too, although it felt kind of lack luster.

Ratchet 2 has to be my least favorite, it just felt so bloated with feature-creep.

If there's one thing I dislike about the franchise, is that Ratchet 2 was just filled with so much white, Ratchet 3 was just so orange?? and the game looked really flat iirc, and Deadlocked was just shades of red and black with the occasional dark green. The UI was ugly in 2 and 3, and looked really good in 1 and Deadlocked.

I haven't played much of the PSP games, but I have heard they where pretty mixed.

I do plan on playing the entire Future Series.

But all in all this was probably one of my most favorite franchises of all time, and I feel kind of depressed that I finished the entire ps2 saga...

Have this nostalgic Ratchet image for reading.

Gtfo I don't WANT your goofy hoe ass

It's over

Looking back on my reviews, (including taking notice as I was making them) I realized they seem creepily overly positive.

Personally, being overly positive makes me gag, and same goes for overly negative.

But I don't know how to praise the good in a artists work without sounding overly observant or creepy.

Doing art has made me appreciate the details and effort artists puts in, and I can't help but to always take notice of the effort they put in (having that kind attitude from friends for my art feels really good) but I can't help but to feel it's just more creepy rather than genuine (which it is genuine, but that don't mean the way it's presented isn't), a lot of people might disagree, but it's just that feeling of: "Holy shit this feels fake and overly positive" imo.

To change the mood from overly critic without it feeling like a 180, have this goofy ass pic of Mario.

Wazzup BITCHES, it is I, Cyro, your friendly neighborhood lizard that hides under his rock on the furthest reaches of the country.

I have come to tell you, YES YOU, where I have been all this time.

Idk if I have depression or not, I show symptoms like the lack of motivation, sometimes I'll never get out of bed, unless I actually feel awake (which I guess is normal, until I sleep for like 12 hours).

ADHD as well, I have problems with paying attention, and to make matters worse I have problems with learning, I read text, and it goes nowhere, I hear talking and voices, but just can't listen.

I feel emotionally exhausted, I swear this entire household is out to get me, my parents are "nice" guys, you know the one, if I obey their every command, they're nice, and shower me in gifts, it's terrible.

Now we have the animals, screaming birds, small annoying dogs, cats everywhere, fucking hate them, give me some damn space, plus the birds and dogs hurt my ears to no fucking end, I despise them.

Love it when I show anger or sadness even a little bit I get yelled at and ridiculed for showing such emotion, in fact I always feel like someone is out to get me thanks to my early child hood with school, the internet, and my entire family. In fact all these are probably why I have so many problems with my emotional state and mental state, fuck the human species.

And my room is garbage, it's small and crampt, the entire room is like falling apart, but that pisses me off more than like, puts me in extreme rage like my family.

ANYWAYS, I have been doing uhh, fine I guess???

My addiction for porn has grew, even after it shrinking to nothing before hand...

Despite not feeling all that motivated to draw, I sure as hell feel more motivated to draw porn, chunky lizard milfs and dilfs all the way, wait what.

As you can see, I have actually still manage to draw some things.

I also have been making 3D models, well, not much, I have made a bottle, a coin and some other third thing.

I begun on Dusk's 3D model, which has been, uhh hell? I haven't been working on it, I take little steps once in a blue moon.

I also have taken a huge interest in Homestuck, I have been watching Voxus' dub, reading Homestuck is just pure hell, unfortunately I have got to the second to last video they made on Homestuck.

I got pretty far in, not that far from the end.

I have learned to pop systems open and clean/fix/fuck-up them, long ago I got a faulty ps3 controller, which I fixed a year back, then cleaned out my ps3, which I only now realized the entire motherboard is lifted up.

I cleaned a GBC and GBA, and made them work slightly better, but the R button on the GBA just refuses to work no matter how much IPA, same goes for the GBA running GB games.

The GBC works perfectly, the speaker still is shit, but works a lot better.

I cleaned out my Wii Remote.

I fixed my DS Lite's faulty left and down input, they're still funky, but the contacts under look a bit corroded, which again, didn't come off despite IPA being the sollution people claim.

And uhh, despite putting it back together, the DS Light is bloated juuuust a little on the back... And the right side squeaks, guh...

I cleaned out my DSi, but fucked it up like a dumbass, it refuses to turn on because the top screen ribbon is now damaged, no idea how other than excessive crinkling, or a lot of finger prints, because I also, put the wrong screws in the battery terminal area, and now they spin endlessly! Fucking amazing..!

I tried to open my 2DS XL to fix the R button on that, but the entire damn button contact seem to have snapped off, looks like I need a solder kit now! But cna't because my parents won't let me have one, and my Dad keeps reccomending me this garbage alternative where it's like paint, which is fucking dumb.

I don't think I want to open and clean my other DSs.

I have been thinking about opening my Laptop to clean it out, but it's all I have besides my garbage ass phone (phones are trash).

I also finally got to work on my school work, wow, 50+ overdues, got them done in two weeks during end of November, fuck school, seriously, it's mentally draining, and I fucking hate it, FUCKING HATE SCHOOL.

Also happy new year, hope someone sees this.

tl:dr - Mental and emotional issues with family, school and this zoo of a house.

Picked up on Homestuck.

Porn addiction worse

More motivated to draw porn than SFW art

Got into engineering (opening devices and cleaning/fixing them)

Happy New Year!

Loved not just the game, but the franchise, I tell you what, I'm getting a physical copy for each game, which isn't even expensive, the games range from 5$ to 20$

Also rare my ass, the Spore Galactic edition (that includes the poster, the art of, and making of shit) is very easy to find, plus ranged from 10$ to 20$.

2/10 physical boxes

4/7 physical copies

Is it a waste of money? Kind of?? The games are dirt cheap, but plentiful.

But damn if the box arts didn't look so fucking cool with all these creatures.

edit: haha can't see the eighty edits I made because I don't proof read my shit.

I was looking for "Battle with a Dangerous Foe" on YT, and decided to look it up for Mother 3 and found a remix by @Tritnew .

This reminds me of the time I found DrunkGecko on Steam under the Community section for Crash N Sane Trilogy.

Piece of fucking shit, fuck porn, fuck pornography, I need to try harder to resist this trash.

Times I went a day or two, I felt a little motivation to draw.

There was a time, where I was four days clean, and was super eager to draw.

I slipped up twice yesterday, and got NOTHING done.

Day before I slipped almost twice.

I have times where I can go two days at a time, then days where I slip twice.

Is rubbing one out to a digital image of breasts, ass, and genitals really worth it, when the sacrifice is loosing motivation? A core part of doing shit??

Maybe, just maybe, I can live with my interests in peace, without the intrusion of lust from digital images.

I need to try harder.

I need to resist more.

FUCK PORN